97 days and counting

In 97 days I'm going to the chapel and I'm gonna get married. Woo Hoo! Sweetie proposed on Christmas Day and I said yes. On 9-9-09 we're gonna do the damn thing. I've filled my hard drive with tons of wedding "porn" (that would be bridal pictures) and I have about 10 bridal blogs bookmarked. I have visions of a beautiful pink and black Martha-esque wedding. I love my hardworking man and can't wait to be his Mrs.

In 97 more days I go from being a widow to being a wife again. It feels strange and it scares the hell out of me, to be truthful. This will be #3. Yes, that's me, Three Time Loser. I joke about it and say that I'm like the Pittsburgh Steelers and won't quit till I have "one for the thumb" but in truth, it keeps me awake at night and give me great anxiety. I'm worried that I won't be a good wife and a good step mother. I'm worried that this relationship will fail. I'm worried that something bad will happen to my Sweetie and I'll be left alone again. I realize that I just need to have faith in him and me and in the situation and be confident that everything will work out the way it's supposed to. When I start to worry too much, I put in a CD with songs that will be played at our reception. This is one of my favorites. I prefer Jewel's version over John Hiatt's or Mandy Moore's.

When the road gets dark, And you can no longer see

Just let my love throw a spark, baby

Have a little faith in me

When the tears you cryAre all you can believe

Just give these loving arms a try, baby

Have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me

When your secret heart, Cannot speak so easily

Come here darlin, From a whisper start

Have a little faith in me

When your back's against the wall Just turn around, you will see

I will catch ya, I will catch your fall

Just have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me

Well, I've been loving you forsuch a long, long time baby

Expecting nothing in return Just for you to have a little faith in me

You see time, time is ourf riend *for you and me*

Cause for us there is no end All you gotta do is have alittle faith in me

I said I will catch you ,I will catch your fall

Have a little faith in me

Hey baby, oh, baby

All ya gotta do is have a little faith in me